| | I feel that I need to write to remember who I am. I feel empty
most of the time and I hate that. I need to find something to put
there. Piano and the LDS church used to be there. Now, when
people ask what am I passionate about, I'm not sure what to say.
It's the truth. I am passionate about music, but it's been so
long that it's been a part of my every day life, I feel like I don't
even deserve to say I am passionate about music.
I want to replace that with the desire to improve. Travis tells
me that I do not even want to improve, that I could care less. It
hurts a little, but I know it's true. I don't want to stay in
this same state the rest of my life or even for one more year. I
look at myself like this a year from now, and I don't want to be "just
okay" with graduating, "just okay" with myself. How can I do
that? Well, just working my butt off, doesn't work. I have
to be consistent in the areas I choose to improve or else it's all for
nothing.
Hm....I need to develop specific goals and measure my progress.
Then I will be able to tell myself I am doing well or poorly. I
can tell Travis that I am improving and actually show him the results.
Working on my finances 15 minutes a day. Writing all bills on the
calendar. Completing all of my chores. Being on time.
Listen to a motivational tape a day. Read for 15 minutes.
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